This older post resonated with me. While I didn't start out with overnight issues, I have to say that Mike's experiences were so similar to my own. What a shock it was to suddenly one day out of the blue to have this uncontrollable urge to pee myself. My first time was in a checkout line at the mall. Unlike raking leaves at home, this mall event would have made me quite the public spectacle. I mustered all the inner strength I could find and was able to shut it down that particular time. Like Mike, as concerned as I was, I eventually dismissed it as a one off event.
But then it started happening again, even at home, when my only bathroom was occupied for too long. Not knowing what to do about it or what was going on, I talked about this with my wife. I was worried about future mall episodes (helping a relative who no longer drives). My wife was the one who quietly said that maybe that I need to wear a diaper when shopping. The very thought of that was mortifying! Losing sleep over that all week long, I finally worked up the courage to buy some pull-ups and wore them the next time out. Since then, I was tested for infections etc. and the doc concluded that I have nerve damage from diabetes.
But the transition to diapers was so sudden and without warning. It didn't leave much time for reflection or acceptance. But with no other solution in sight to keep from "public humiliations galore", I quickly accepted that I needed to do something. Since then, there has been no cure beyond discretely wearing a diaper. I am just grateful that I didn't have to discover this onset while doing the 2 hour train commute to work that I used to do. I now work close to home. Thanks to this site have figured out a management routine.
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