Hello,
Welcome! I know it's hard to get to wearing protection again, but you can do it - I found self-confidence to be the most important trait in order to cope with our problems and to be able to still function in outside world. At least I know how much did self-confidence help myself in order to achieve what I always wanted to achieve - I wanted to feel free, but unfortunately due to problems with IC I have been very closed and isolated socially person. I managed to develop the mindset, that helped me understand basic principles in life and I managed to found some goals in my life to pursue. I also noticed, that being focused on something - some goal that you pursue, helps you get through all of those problems that you cope with in your daily life.
I see, that you know what you are doing and despite the problems that you encounter on daily basis, you know what to do and probably know your end-game as well
Wish you all the best!
Collectively we probably represent just about any kind of incontinence problem you could think of. Do read the New Diaper Primer and the Introduction to Adult Diapers. Then just browse through the archives of old messages. There is a lot of very useful information there.