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It's' been some time since I last posted anything. Actually, I'm not sure why I am now. I guess I'm in one of those ashamed that I need to wear diapers kind of mood. To refresh everyone's memory, I'm the one with bladder diverticulum causing retention...300ml. or more post void. My urologist says the only treatment is to have it surgically removed which would probably not ease any of the urge issues that I have, and could make things worse. I have had numerous shoulder surgeries along with green light prostate surgery, so I'm not to hot on the idea of another surgery. I have also tried a number of med.s, but they mess me up pretty good. The bad part about this whole thing is that I'm a fairly active man of nearly 67 yrs. There is really not much of anything else wrong with me; maybe a little high on the glucose numbers, and the blood pressure sneaks up once in a while, but generally pretty healthy. I sort of feel like some kind of freak. I have told a few friends about my condition and embarrassment by it. Fortunately the are very supportive. In fact, one of my very good friends told me not to be embarrassed at all. He said that at our age most of us are headed in the same direction...just that I'm in the advanced class. Well, I guess that's about it. I don't expect any necessary replies. I just needed to vent a little. Thanks for listening.

Understandable. When I figured out I was having problems I decided well.. I'm 34, no big deal. Not that anyone outside of my closest friends should need to know. And if anyone else guesses, fine, whatever. I'd rather wear the things than to be walking around in the store in line waiting at the register and suddenly lose it and wet myself in front of a bunch of people (without warning either). This happened to me a few weeks ago and that was when I decided to bite the bullet and put on protection, replacing my big girl pants for other things.

Yeah..having an accident like that in front of everyone defitetly put things in perspective..and biting the bullet and wearing protection is never easy...i was faced with a really difficult situation last night at work. First let me give you a little background. Im 31 years old.. and i first had sustainable bladder issues..or rather did someting about them in 2008.. it started with dribbles.. but progressed to floods within thhe course of a year. I eventualyl took to wearing full on briefs 24/7, never giving up hope for a solution..finally in early 2010, thanks to intervention from U of M and a semi-local physical therapist who specialized in biofeeedback.. i was eventually dry...for 4 wonderful happy years. Fast forward to last night..and here i was...in a real rock and hard place.. having wet spurts.. Now.. the issue wasn't oh i dont want to wear a diaper i dont want to wear protection etc etc..because ive been there done that..and could deal with diaper wearing if i had to.. no, the real dilemma was i was working 3rd shift at walmart, in the middle of the night. I contemplated buying a pack of briefs..but dismissed the idea because i know almost everyone who works 3rd shift... and theres only one cashier that works the register at night... and no other stores are open so i can't go somehwere else and buy protection.. thankfully i made it through the night without having a full on pants drenching.. and bought protection the next morning... that was the toughest situation ive ever been in...

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