It turns out that my health insurance doesn't go active until the 1st of January

I was talking with my sister and shared with her that I think I may be stuck like this. I just don't see how it can get better. That is to say, I don't think I'll ever be able to regain control of either my bladder or bowels to the point where I'd be able to go without a diaper. I suppose there is a mourning period for the loss of control and I feel that I may be just about getting to the point where it's OK and I can just continue on with my life despite the fact that my body has betrayed me.
I'm sure I'll feel somewhat better once I can get into the doctor so that they can figure out what's happening. But what if they can't? If there's something I've learned on this board, it's that I may not ever have the luxury of getting a clear-cut answer as to why I have become IC . I guess I'll never know until I try.