why do I keep trying?

[docjohn]

Has anyone say to themselves "screw it", and give in to the fact that they need to wear diapers. I have days and nights when I stay dry, sometimes several in a row. Then, out of the blue I will have a bunch of wet days and nights. It's getting more and more troubling trying to guess when I might have dry days and nights. The unpredictability of incontinence can raise my anxiety.

I got to that point 20+ years ago.