JoeK wrote:
You have already found the benefits of diapers as a management tool, pretty much essential to restoring normalicy in one's life after being hit with incontnence to any degree. I think the lighter degrees are much harder to deal with as one wants to be "normal" and wear "normal underpants" not a diaper, and so takes chances that they'll be OK and then a damn leak and embarassment and grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Yeah, this is one reason why i think maybe just using the diaper for no 1 would help..that way i know id never make it within time.. get rid of the debate..get rid of the disappointments when i dont make it.. get rid of the false hopes i have when some days are nearly dry.. most of all.. if my bladder were to shrink, i would have predictable and much more mangable episdodes.. not the 16 oz FLOODS that require both a brief and a booster that happen in the morning.
Whats funny is it seems that a lot of my episodes happen when i get a certian urge and know that i should go to the toilet.. so i go..and then somehow urine starts trickling out before i get there. It may not have happened otherwise. This is what some may call "key in lock syndrome" where a certian action causes a wetting episdode.
your comment above about wearing underwear is so true. I have tried wearing normal underwear, only to be disappointed with wet spots. Whole reason for me using protection in the first place was to avoid the wet smelly underwear, and sometimes pants. Yes, ive had episodes in the past before i wore diapers that was more than a few drops it was a small stream. Sometimes this would wet my underwear, sometimes it would get down my leg. sometimes this would get the wall wet..
Accepting you dont have control is hard to swallow. I was in denial of the incontinence.. but it got to the point where i couldnt deny it any more.