I.. did it again.
I went out to the mailbox to check to see if I had any diaper samples initiated by my worker at UPHP.. and I felt the need to poop. I thought, no problem.. I'll just poop when I get back to the house. Only.. it was one of those poops where the rectum was FULL.. and it was quite persistent. I'm like nope, im not going to just poop in the diaper. I actually want to try to make it to the toilet. I got upstairs and was almost to the bathroom when i felt myself pushing.. its like whats going on here? It was like an automatic process. I know that the bowel does do that if the bowel is full enough to avoid rupture..similar to how the bladder automatically empties when it reaches critical. However, with the bowel, it is harder to interuppt and run to the bathroom quickly. What concerns me is how I get to this point and don't have a clue on how full my rectum is. Most of the time, I feel stool pressing on the rectum, delaying defecation for a few minutes isn't a problem. I'm smart enough to not wait when I'm at work. But, what if I have one of those instsances where I need to poop really badly, but I cant because I have to clear an entire section of the parking lot to keep up with customer rush? Ugh. The last few times I saw a doctor they pushed metamucil and/or Mirilax. I dont mind doing that its just a matter of REMEMBERING to do it. Having ADHD and autism spectrum disorder, I think a lot of things are on the to do list but dont get done. I am wondering if I should ask for a referral to a specialist to test if I have the same thing going on in my bowel as I do my bladder. I think its more than just constipation. I think I should be aware of the need to defecate LONG before I reach the point where if I dont go poop within the next 10 minutes, I poop my pants. There's gotta be something more going on.JD, since you have fecal incontinence caused by nerve damage, I would appreciate your input here.
Peace out!
Rob