Padded: my riff on self-empathy was just processed, and recycled words from all you guys. I think I know how frustrated, and helpless you feel georgianchants131. I really really struggled for a bit when I started having to wear protection. OAB was not new, but I did not ever have to consider wearing a damn diaper. It was a really rapid onset into nearly full loss of control. It was a shock, and shift to my life. With depression, and fear for my health, and no clear answer at the time from the doctor, I felt completely deranged. I don't want to go into detail about how dark it really got, but I will say that I'm thankful to have interacted with folks on here. I think I'm copying advice to me from JDinvirginia who told me I should "take care, and be kind to yourself"
At some point I think I became "OK" with all of it. And yeah, I still struggle a great deal. Caring about my health and safety, like someone else would is how I resolved to "deal with it". My brain and body work incorrectly, so I need to look after myself.
The best thing though, I think, is when I stopped worrying, and hating all of it, my mind was free to concentrate on the other areas of my life. I didn't do any counseling, but I do try to practice mindfulness. I'm sure I could have, and still could benefit from having a professional help me sort my thoughts. I would say if how you feel emotionally day to day inhibits you from making progress you should take action to help yourself out. Stop letting bad feelings control what you do with your time.
I really hope you get to start having some better days. Thanks,
_________________ Thank you kindly, CG
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