One thing that REALLY annoys me about my incontience, both now and when i had incontinence before is that i could really never predict when and where and how it was going to happen. Thus, i need to wear protection ALL the time.. which i do.. The last few night it seemed to manifest more as stress than anyhyhing else, that its, it was just small leaks at a time, so i could avoid major floods. NOPE, nice try Rob! Friday night, i was drinking extra water because my NP wants me to flush out the small kidney stones i was having.. so what did i do? I bought a 1.8 oz bottle water..and filled it once..and i figured, if my bladder gave me a signal that i had to go pee, i would. Well, i was out in the parking lot.. and felt soemthing..but i wasn't sure if it was just a little bit of urine that i had in there, or a lot, because there are times, as is often the case with oveflow incon, especially, that you may only let out a little bit of urine, but it feels like your going to leak a ton. Well,long story short, i wanted to wait until i was done with my current task, both because i didnt feel like going in to the bathroom..one thing i swore to myself this time around with incon is i would NOT let my life revolve arond a toilet. and two i wanted to see what would happen.. i mean regardless of the amount of water one drinks.. one SHOULD be able to hold it in for at least an half hour or an hour right, and then use the bathroom without wetting? yeah, well.. I ended up FLOODING hte diaper. Thats right folks. 3 full on gushes, that were as far as i coul tell, pretty darn close to bladder capacity. Well, by then, the diaper was so full that were i to wet again, i probably would have leaked. And this was AFTER i went and peed a little into the toilet.. So, what did i do? i went to the bathroom again, and relaxed and had a good flow.. Sorry for the TMI..but its what we all go thru on the board. Let me tell you i was darn glad that it was break time so i could change that brief... part of my duty was to move the electric carts back after mopping hte floor.. well. with a very saturated brief.. i didint want to take chances of me sitting on it and forcing the urine back out.. i think a few drops might have leaked out.. i felt sort of wet down the legs..but nothing was noticable on the outside of my pants (Thank you Jesus!).. So, i went got changed, all was well.. and since i had good flow..bladder pain subsided. Yes, i do think i have overflow.. or oveflow and stress incon mixed..since that was my diagnosis before and the symptoms mimic almost precicesly from those before.. Well. only have 2 days more.. get a proper diagnosis..and hopefully soon insurance will kick in covering the cost of my diapers..i have to buy another bag tomorrow, and htey are getting expensive... all for now!
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